Oh My....

Oh My!!! SO I must admit honestly that I never thought at any point in my life, that our family would be at the cross roads that we are at right now!

My heart seems to be an open gaping wound with no healing in sight. What happened to the family eternal that I had imagined in my mind??? Where has that family gone??? I know that we have all headed off in different directions over the last several years but for the family that in my mind had it more together than most, we have sure been derailed!

Is this what comes from getting comfortable? Lax in our day to day efforts of trying to become better at being a family? I don't know, but for some reason it strikes me strongly that we have gotten very comfy in our positions in life. SOme with their responsibilities with kids getting to school and such, me with my kids trying to grow up as adults and make it in the real world...and Dad & Mom trying ti figure out how to hold it together as a married couple who has fallen out of love too many times to really be able to bandage this one...

Which ever scenario you are looking in at or our from, it seems to be the only one that matters! I wish so much that the only view that mattered was the one that we could se each morning as we take a gaze in the mirror. However, everyone in some way or another is affected by the gaze, that we seem to think is so casual. My heart hurts in way I never thought was possible! My belief in things that can and can not be accomplished is wavering... can there be a happy ever after? I am not sure if there can be...but I am for sure hoping that there might be and that those if us that remain will and are willing to fight for it, instead of giving in to the over powering desire to have everything go our way! I love you all! I miss my family! Hugs! and loves!

the art of avoidance

so. we are anxiously waiting for the keys to our very own new home. i have a million and one things i should be doing, but i am skillfully avoiding them all by posting to the family blog.
this has certainly been a summer of adventure for our little family. as i type our one year old boston terrier, Zoe, is snoring at my feet. she snores like a grizzly bear. we love her. she was abandoned and we got to adopt her. her history is a mystery, but she is funny and noisy and gentle; a good fit for our family. we think her future is bright.
i am so sad that i won't get to join some of you tomorrow at the park. i hope you all have a blast. hugs to everyone.
mom and dad -- you are amazing in every way. can't wait to see you next weekend.
we are almost home!!! come and visit soon!
love you family!

I know I am a day late, but Happy 4Th everyone! I love and miss you all, and hope you all are doing well! Things here are hoping as mostly usual, and time s for sure not standing still. Hope things for all of you are going well. Wish I had time and money to make it out to see all of you. Despite being poor like everyone else, things are going good, hope the same can said for all of you!

Hello Everone

I would like to thank everyone for cards,and other well wishes on fathers day, Christi and the girls surprised me and come down on Thr.night instead of Sunday, because they knew mom would be up in SALT LAKE TO THE GEM fAIR, AND THEY DIDN,T want me to be alone.. Christi made a special chickem enchilada, dinner for our diner; I want you all to know that it was really good..We have had fun with them here I took them up to Gunlock to see the water coming over the spillway, then we went down to the Santa Clara river to look for rocks and play in the water..they have been hiking and other activities.. They are still trying to get use to the hot weather we are having..
I had a Dr,s appointment and everything went well.. Then Monday I had a blood draw and again everything is still pretty good.. I really thank all of you for your prayers in my behalf, and I know the Lord is hearing them and I am thankfull..
Jan and her friend Rita, came down for about 3 days to stay with us so they could attend traing for their school lunch program it was fun to get to visit with both of them, even if it was until the early morning 1 am, but they still made it to all their traing.. Jan and Rita, left for home Fri. afternoon so they could spent the week end with their families..
I have beenwaiting up fot the dariy to come, it is here and in the fridge, so I will sign off for now.. I love all of you very much... Love DAD

Hello Family

Yes, it's me. Don't faint in your chair. I'm actually posting.

We had a busy weekend. The Utah Valley Children's Choir came to our area for a performance. We had the good fortune of hosting four of the young women that are part of the group. It was very enjoyable. The kids took to our four visitors almost immediately. Jesse stayed up later with us and visited and its fun to see him learning how to interact and open up a little bit more, especially with girls. He enjoyed it too, though I think he would actually try to deny it, but soon the smile would break through and he wouldn't be able to hide it.

Jennah's sister, Sarelle, and her family are moving to Kansas. Dan has a new job there. They stopped here for the night last night. It was fun to visit, though my visiting time with them was cut short. Caleb has a Inguinal Hernia (sp?). At first, we noticed there would be a bulge near his groin, but he didn't complain about it and it would pass. However, withing the last several weeks it has been causing him pain. Last night the pain was really bad. A couple of weeks ago we took him to the ER for this because we were advised by multiple sources to do so to ensure that there wasn't any constriction of the intestines. All was well, but we needed to get it treated. We had an appointment for June 23 with a pediatric surgeon. But last night was pretty bad. I was in the hospital with Caleb all night. He was up until about 2:00 in the morning when the morphine finally kicked in and they were able to push his intestines back in. I finally got a couple of hours sleep when they took us up to the pediatric ward so they could monitor Caleb until morning. Needless to say, we got an earlier appointment with a pediatric surgeon and we will probably have a day surgery for Caleb very soon. Keep us in your prayers on this.

Aside from our eventful few days, life moves forward fairly routinely on most days. We hope you are all well. We will be coming out to Utah in July. I will be flying into Salt Lake on the evening of the 21st of the morning of the 22nd and I'd love to see as many of you as possible on that Friday. Then we'll head down to St. George for a couple of days. I'll be in touch with you all directly to see what arrangements we can make.

Love you

Dave

Winding up...

Well, the school year is finally winding up! This last few weeks have seemed to take forever! Perhaps it is because of the weather that it has been so hard. I am really looking forward to spending as much time as I can with Chet this summer. Both here at home and out on the road with him.

I will be heading to St George with a coworker and friend of mine from Brazil the second week of June for some training. It will be good but strange to be away from my family for the long. At least I will be staying with Mom & Dad so it won't be like I am completely isolated from them. :)

I have an interview for a managers job tomorrow afternoon, for an unknown elementary school. I really do have such mixed emotions about leaving the school that I am currently at. I have worked there now for 8 years! I am comfortable there and a bit nervous to be the one in charge. It would be nice, however; to have the added income of the managers! :) Which was the whole point of all the training I have done and the extra work I have been doing for a large part of the end of this year. Whatever happens will be good. I will just be glad to know one way or the other what it is I will have to look forward to.

Megan and Ford have been having some personal struggles but continue to work and live their lives. They are busy and I don't see much of them these days. can't really complain because I have been pretty busy myself. Of which Megan often reminds me..."You are never home!" We just seem to be on totally different schedules.

Tractor season started, and Chet has been out rounding up work to make sure that we can pay the debit that comes along with the business. We will be keeping pretty busy I think. I finally got my garden planted this last weekend, but I am uncertain if it will grow this year, as it has rained so much, and looking at the forecast it looks much the same, so it will be interesting to see what comes of it this year. I will give it my best effort.

I have continued with my exercise program and after pulling a muscle in my leg have finally worked back up to running three miles again. I have also added some water aerobics to the mix and have encouraged some of the ladies I work with to come and enjoy it with me. It has been fun to see them come out and to get to know them a little better. It is nice to feel healthy!

I love you all and hope that things are going well for all of you and your families!

Take care and until next time.... hugs from a far! Jana & Family!

BEEN A LONG TIME

It has been a long time since anyone posted a blog on our family site..I really miss reading someone else post, please take a moment and make an entry... I am doing well.. My blood is staying up.. I go see the Dr. on May 25th.. it has been a little over ninety days since my last apointment... Maybe this time we can reduce one more pill, I hope! Then it becomes a matter of waiting to see how my body responds with one less pill.. The more I can cut back the better it will be for my kidneys..
Today Mom, had to drive to Knab UT. and Page AZ. see had appointments to meet with prospective patients.. In Page she had a presentation for all the LDS Bishops in the area and felt their effort has been well worth it for them.. They have to be up and on the road wed. by 6:30 to meet with some one in Knab, then they drive over to Alta and Orderville for more meetings.. If she is lucky she should get home about 9pm.. This new job has added a lot of stress to our lives.. Mom feels it may be her fault that more people have not signed up for their service, so she is working harder and longer.. She will be successful, but it isn,t coming fast enough for her..
I miss seeing all of you. I do get to talk with most everyone on the telephone and that does help some.. I hope to get to see everyone this summer..
I just over ccoked a pot of egges I forgot about while i was doing this blog..
I love each of you very much, and pray the Lords blessing will be upon each and everyone one of you.. LOVE DAD